okay... previously i mentioned about me losing friends yes? well on April 28th i went to talk to both of them... well i intend to talk to just one bt fine... so simply saying i asked stuff like y the cold shoulder treatment n what not, is he happy a life wt out me, is he happy to finally to get rid of me? and with a straight voice and a cold eyes he simply say yes... i tried to look into his eyes if i can find tht hint of 'haha just joking of cz nt i miss u too' kind of stuff bt i didnt find it... i tried to look for a hint of remorse in his eyes if he'd regret saying it cz he realize it had hurt me BAD... bt tht search was also in vain... and omg tht pain... i felt like some vampire hunter just went and put a stake right through my heart... well seriously i have no recollection of what happen in between the conversation bt i remembered most of it as i had 1 major emotional leakage alone then infront of my second darling... any way i tried to mend it... bt well there's nothing left to mend... so i guess it is GOOD BYE la... :) regardless of what, i still love them bt like everything in life, they r just one of those whom i can say, STRANGERS WT MEMORIES...
on tht day, that was my last sorry i'd offer to him... then no more... ronn, i will always <3 '<-this calls as hearts' u... tht will never change... bt i have to move on... u made ur choice of word which lead us to where we are now... i hope u r happier now... i wish u all the best.
